DON'T TALK JUST FUCK IT WHEN IT GET'S HARD
the swede asked me, "what has america
ever done that was good?"-and i stared
into her pretty blue eyes and i thought about
blowing the whole thing off but i wanted to
fuck her, especially after jc left
with the birthday hooker. i told her i didn't
give a fuck about iraq or the jews
or europe or any other place that hated
me for no reason and she looked at
me and brought up the indians just because she
had a native tattoo, "what about
what you did to the indians..."-she asked, "me personally..."-
i answered, "i don't give a fuck about them either."-
she laughed then i took her down the beach and we sat
under the moonlight and people walked by and i pulled her
pants off and planted a seed.
FLY ON SHIT OR THE MOST BEAUTIFUL AIRPORT IN THE WORLD SAMUI
the world hates america because we dry hump
israel and israel hates up but they control
such a large portion of the money in the you S the
politicians have to back them. hollywood is
backed by them and they stick with their own,
and we burn gas, and we eat too much food, religion and drugs;
and we wave fake fuck flags, and we give diamonds
for blowjobs while kids get their arms chopped off in africa
and hump israel hates us and the world hates america too.
apple's a sweet girl and she means it.
who prays to buddha-
hands together bowing three times at the
end of the bed.
she catches men for money
to send home
she works in a bar off bangla
she teaches me how to write my name in thai
she's funny and you could
bounce a quarter off her ass.
she doesn't give you static and
her smile makes the sun and flowers
come up every time.
she'd do well in
a place like america but either way she's
still be a whore.
i paint for three days and make two hundred.
i spend it in three days doing nothing. i feel
good but i'm stuck. j's got a place for a week
and i'll crash there. today i have three bucks. i eat a cheese
sandwich. i fuck girls in bathrooms. i'm a drunk.
i have a bag and jibby's bag because he went to after
hours. it's 4:43 in the afternoon and he's still
sleeping. the cool girls are scared of me. maybe i'm
too much. i can't stop smoking. i'm a fucking perv.
the psychic at the knitting factory says i was privileged
in my last life. she says i'm paying my dues. she wants to hook
her daughter up with me and her son plays in a country band on
stage. i'mnot talking to my parents. i did a line with five girls from
minnesota. spokeabout the baseball game in oakland. i have
no gloves--jacket--or socks. shit's everywhere. i watched a snl
marathon. i'vebeen back four five days. borrowed money off two
australians to get out of thailand. twelve beans. i've reached
new lows. sitting on a couch drinking coffee.
everyone thinks i'm nuts. i'm nuts but i feel good. i look
in the mirror and i can see me at age 60. i know what i'll look like, act
like, be like. got home last night and there were 40
black kids at ted's place. i went to bed at 6. i got a slice today
and jerked off
when jay left with abby. war with iraq is soon. bush is a fucking
imbecile. i won't let any of this bring me down.
BOMBS OVER BAGHDAD WEDNESDAY MORNING
teddy wore debbie's old calvin klein
panties and a cowboy hat.
the three jersey broads
did lines and bled out
of their noses. that one
girl hope had nice wheels.
jay played guitar.
dreeland had an art show
and sold four paintings.
timmy sat there playing
wiffle ball in a red do rag smoking.
bandingo danced to black betty
with his shirt off while i
shot the whole
thing on video.
hippy bar has swing sets
to look at the sunrise, sunset.
it's got the norwegian and the
drunk guy who got blowed by
a lady boy. jib lost his flip flops
here sleeping under a tree. don
henley's new york minutes pass.
he's on the box. 5:30 someday.
tuna fish sandwiches arrive. the key
to life is doing exactly what you
want. don't get sucked into the crap.
don't always believe in sweet love
and try to stay away from most